This phone issue has just made me realize that outcomes are just not always what they appear. Here I am thinking that a new phone on the newest operating system would be a better thing only to see nothing but limitations in the practical working of such a device. A snicker could just roll out of my mouth on the matter if I could just get passed the tears of losing a truly great phone in the process.
I think what I did learn today is that what you think you want is often fueled by sin. Sometimes you just have to face the facts to find freedom. So there I am happy with a phone I "had to get out of" earlier and now at a later point of my life happy to have it again. What we now need to look at is how this sort of thing can occur. Hold on though the answer may surprise you.
How is it then can we love something that we use to be unhappy with? The answer is something you already know all to well.. perspective. You see we view everything through our own uniquely tinted pair of rose colored glasses. They are all individually stylized by the summation of our past experiences. So our reality for what it is worth is truly just ours.
So with this knowledge we can then pull into focus all this story. We are just simply not the people we once were. Since we look at the world differently today than we do yesterday we can see how looking at exactly the same thing and find new found wisdom in it. I does seem then that time does bring wisdom to those who take the time to wonder.
I know for what it is worth the older I get in this journey the more sure I am that I have no idea what is going on and how far I have to go to attain whatever wisdom I can possibly gleam from this existence. Yes I know, I know I just said that time changes your perspective, however we are talking about wisdom here. You know the ability to actually learn and alter behavior based on past circumstances. Now my friends we are talking about a whole other game. This is where you either succeed or fail the test that is life.
For me this seems to be the real core of the issue. I go through the world asking for the Lord to make life have "few doors and a marrow path" however I am not to sure I am actually learning anything. Yes I am enduring however I do not think I am succeeding. Any one else out there know where I am coming from? It is like that scripture in James. I am a man that looks in the mirror and forgets what I look like. I go through all these tests and trials and still end up the same as yesterday.
How is it then that we actually make some progress? Well to tell you the truth I am not sure I know the answer to this one. I would be lying if I did. After all this whole "journey" thing is about honesty isn't it? Here however is some things I have observed from my own failure in the matter and I hope it helps you out as well.
You need to remember who you are and who you are not. Now this may seem something that is apparent however I do think we have a tendency to blow smoke at ourselves to hide things. So let us look at one failure I have to help us illustrate the matter further. I appear to be a very driven motivated and confident individual. Most of the time I even stump myself with my own arrogance as a walk on by. The truth of the matter is easily seen if you watch me for long enough. All this positioning, posturing and busy work actually doesn't ever really produce anything. It is like the business man that needs to have his office "just so" before he can possibly do any work. I my friends fall squarely into this category.
When it comes down to it I am simply just afraid. yup it is just that. Now that we can now look at the monster let us all pick up our sword and take the quest to learn and change. Forward march!
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